First day of work after Daylight Saving Time this year. I’m a bit groggy with this form of jet lag, and for the first time in a month, I had to use my phone flashlight to navigate the field to get to work. I’m not complaining, though. I did manage to get this shot:
Moody, mildly unfocused, but still, not bad.
I’m not one to get political about DST, and the change we must make twice a year. I know there are those that do, and I’ll let them waste their energy on it. I live with it, and adjust with minor complaints when it happens.
I haven’t worked on my websites in a couple weeks. My creative juices are moving a bit like jam. Writing this is one way I’m trying to jump start my brain, but I’m afraid it’ll just be a disjointed ramble. Another Monday, I guess.
But, of course, I’ll be posting this on Tuesday, which must fall under the titular “…Other Problems”, right? But these thoughts are genuinely from Monday, so I’ll keep the title. (Besides, working up the banner picture was a lot of work, not sure I have the bandwidth to do it again for Tuesday.)
Speaking of bandwidth, I have mentioned my new job has given me more creative options freedom that any in my past, so what’s the current blockage? I think it’s that I have several orders coming in.
I now have a positive balance in my bank, and along with paying down bills, I decided to get a few things to replace things that have been lost along the way. Books, mostly, I love the Harry Dresden books, and stopped reading around book 11, and it was mainly because I just couldn’t spare the money to keep going.
I got most of them from Half Priced Books. (I did say it’s a positive balance, but it’s not unlimited.) I used to live in Texas, and there was a HPB in my town, and I loved that place.
But where I live now, I have to order it online and get it shipped. With shipping it’s not quite the deal it was when I could just go in, but it’s still not bad. Plus, ordering online means you see all the stock from all their stores, not just the one you’re wandering in.
This last order was 6 books, and not one of them came from the same store. One from Texas, one from Seattle, there was another from Nebraska and more. They have quite a robust network these days!
With all these things coming in, I felt an unusual tension inside me. That “other shoe” feeling you get when you just don’t trust things to go well.
Maybe there’s no reason for things to go wrong, but I grew up thinking I was born just 1% more unlucky than everyone else. If I do everything right, follow every step with precision, it still might fail.
So, things just waiting to arrive took up some bandwidth on my brain. It’s why I took an extra day to write a Monday post. It’s almost why I put this off yet another day. (But then, I’d have to rewrite, and that’s such a bother.)
I hope that’s all it is. Everything is due to arrive this week, so if I’m right, I should be back to full power this coming weekend. If that’s not it, well, I’m just going to have to bull through.
I’ve given myself responsibilities, and I’m going to take that seriously. 5 websites, though one is an aggregator, but that one still needs tweaking till I’m happy with it.
This one, Jindai.us is the easiest, it’s up a running WordPress and that’s about as turnkey as you could ask for. Even though the app is funky as heck, I know its limitations and can work with them to write up this post and publish it.
The others, though are not that easy. Astro builds, or netlify custom jobs that take more work to launch and maintain. The jukebox site is still in data build mode, and the memoir is needing far more entries, (I have like 25 articles waiting to be written, and unlike my normal habits, I have notes and rough outlines for them.) The podcast is still in the works, and the site is almost ready for prime time. (Don’t get me started on Dead podcasts. It’s a great idea, but oy, the scripts aren’t written!)
I just need to get out of this funk. I have no reason to just be consuming tv shows when I want to get my creative out.
Maybe that’s all this post is, clearing a little space in my head so I can get moving again.
After all, even a slightly blurry moon on a groggy Monday morning still looked pretty good, to these Tuesday-night eyes.
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